I wonder if this is all about life? i wonder if anyone care and appreciate anything i do. Every single time i give my best. But no one sees it They only spot my flaws the mistakes that i do. They don't care about the good things i have done. Sometimes i just get all so tired. Cuz im trying so hard for everyone to be happy but it's not working . I didn't do my part today in cca cuz i'm not free. But i really put in my effort in the lesson plan. But i guess everyone's just angry with me. Broken up on the inside.. Im sorry guys

This is just the start cuz when things come your way you have to keep trying and trying. Never give up cuz that's the end of everything

Bianca

Been pretty long since i last blogged. So, hi again!

  2013, 1 month have passed. Time flies. it scares me how each day just passes so quickly. Every ticking of the clock, just means that we are growing older by every passing second minute hours days months years and so on. Sometimes, u asked yourself how much you have achieved so far and many just say ' i don't know' some have an answer some don't. Well, if we don't make use of our time properly i'm afraid that it will be too late when you realize it. I guess the morning devotions in schools really applies to this post. You only live 10 years old once 11 once 12 once and so on. Once it's gone you can never get it back.

  All i just wanna do now is really live my life well. instead of complaining and hoping that time passes faster but i really hope that each day will be a day full of new challenges and new purpose. So that's something i should really work on.

So what do i really wanna blog about today? I guess i;'ll just give an overall summary of the year so far. This year..what can i say? how much can i ask for when God have already done so much? The first week of school was pretty tough, adapting to our new classes and all. It was pretty awkward and hard. However things changed after camp , my class really bonded and everything got so much better. Many things happened but i shan't elaborate. All i have to say is God really did answer my prayers and helped me in every area of my life. His so amazing (:

All i wanna do now is study hard and make God and my parents proud. I myself know that it's not gonna be easy, I'll probably have to face the fact that im one of the weaker ones in my class. But i think all it takes is hard work to prove my own abilities. I'll just put in the best i can and leave the rest to God and even when i don't achieve the results at least i know that i gave my very best. Doing well shouldn't be an issue.. i think the problem right now is that i can't focus and i'm always wasting my time lazing around. See this all links back to how time just passes so quickly . I tell myself that i should work hard but i'm doing the opposite. So when can i ever live up to my words? I need to stop being lazy. Easy to say hard to do. But nonetheless i promise i will try my best (:

That's all for the part of studies and school etc. Now moving on to something recent. Well on to friendships and relationships with the people around me i guess idk... sometimes i tend to overthink. I'm afraid that people just gonna walk out of my life and best friends becomes strangers. It's sad when it really happens cuz when someone that once meant something to you become like any other stranger.. That just hurts... Everyone close to me , promise me that we gonna be friends forever and ever. I guess i said my part. till the next post (:

Bianca

Hello! (:


 Haven't blogged in awhile. So anyways 1 month of the holidays have passed. Has been my most awesome end of year holidays so far with a purpose. Been going to church almost everyday and doing life with the people i love (:

 Most exciting event of November was SURRENDER CAMP! was in the camp planning team with people in other CG's. Was pretty awkward at first but we turn out to be the craziest people ever! Never thought i would be able to plan such camps.Thanks evonne for always believing in me (: The people i met were BOOMZ the best! never thought i would meet such awesome people. People in church are really different from others.

The revival nights and the campfire was what made me grow stronger in God and really allowed me to experience the love of God. It was by far the best camp i ever had. #surrendercamp2012

Church really changed me throughout this whole year. I must say that i made the best decision to stay in hogc (:

Till the next post :)

Hey!

just decided to blog today again! (:

Had a great chat with kim today! It's been a long time since i talked to her. Miss her loads! And she'll be off to aussy soon ): sigh sigh

I wonder why people only cherish things when it's too late... Oh well sometimes everything is just so unpredictable and people are too.

This few days have been starting to doubt idk but is it just my imagination or is it reality that some of my friends are drifting away i can literally feel it.. sigh. Not a good feeling at all.

Really need to cherish the people around me now. Before i start to regret. I hate regretting ): The feeling that you miss out on something good.

Starting to get all emotional about friendships. sigh some friendships are really so unstable is it me?):  someone tell me how i can change..

Mixed feelings mixed emotions. oh well till the next post :)

Heyo! it's time for some updates

TODAYS TOPIC: IDK? LIFE?

Well.. ever had the feeling of being left out?

being out of place?

friendless?

lonely?

alone?

in a dark corner where no one ever cares......

Yeah that feeling really sucks

But no one knows, no one cares . You live your life they live theirs. It's quite sad.. if everyone was others centered we would be living in a great world a great place. If only...

But so..? life goes on through this small little obstacles this small little problems.. somehow everything has to go on. Its your decision whether you want it to be good or you wnat to live in sadness right?

Guys, if your feeling this way please get out of it suck it up and go on with life. Time doesn't wait.Things DO get better over time. Time will tell. If Those people matter they will care somehow. if they don't just let them go. 

At the moment just find something to change in you to make you a better person. IF you hav e big problems means you have a big future. (: - bishop dale bronner

Work towards your dreams do what you like don't waste time pondering on yur sadness and missing the good things in your life there's much more to life (: 

stay tune! (:

HELLOO! yay holidays are starting soon ! results were okay i guess (: Hope i don't rot during the holidays so nervous for next thursday! ): gonna know our streaming classes. Anddd gonna miss 2 faith sigh ): time flies eveything is over before we even know it ): Hope next year would be a good one though (: And yup its building fund season so excited to give to God !! woohoo till the next post :))

Hey hey so yup hi! so many things happening lately havent bogged for so long ): been kinda busy ): so had my math common test and i failed ); science common test today quite screwed must really work hard esp for math and science! super important ! ((; anyways really thankful for my cg people and also some of my schoolmates ! been so encouraging towards me.

Really must have faith and applying sermons that pastor teach into my life. I believe all things will work out for good to those that love God (: Yes yes must have a positive mindset (: PDS competition very soon! Anyways till the next post (;