Hello! (:


 Haven't blogged in awhile. So anyways 1 month of the holidays have passed. Has been my most awesome end of year holidays so far with a purpose. Been going to church almost everyday and doing life with the people i love (:

 Most exciting event of November was SURRENDER CAMP! was in the camp planning team with people in other CG's. Was pretty awkward at first but we turn out to be the craziest people ever! Never thought i would be able to plan such camps.Thanks evonne for always believing in me (: The people i met were BOOMZ the best! never thought i would meet such awesome people. People in church are really different from others.

The revival nights and the campfire was what made me grow stronger in God and really allowed me to experience the love of God. It was by far the best camp i ever had. #surrendercamp2012

Church really changed me throughout this whole year. I must say that i made the best decision to stay in hogc (:

Till the next post :)

Hey!

just decided to blog today again! (:

Had a great chat with kim today! It's been a long time since i talked to her. Miss her loads! And she'll be off to aussy soon ): sigh sigh

I wonder why people only cherish things when it's too late... Oh well sometimes everything is just so unpredictable and people are too.

This few days have been starting to doubt idk but is it just my imagination or is it reality that some of my friends are drifting away i can literally feel it.. sigh. Not a good feeling at all.

Really need to cherish the people around me now. Before i start to regret. I hate regretting ): The feeling that you miss out on something good.

Starting to get all emotional about friendships. sigh some friendships are really so unstable is it me?):  someone tell me how i can change..

Mixed feelings mixed emotions. oh well till the next post :)

Heyo! it's time for some updates

TODAYS TOPIC: IDK? LIFE?

Well.. ever had the feeling of being left out?

being out of place?

friendless?

lonely?

alone?

in a dark corner where no one ever cares......

Yeah that feeling really sucks

But no one knows, no one cares . You live your life they live theirs. It's quite sad.. if everyone was others centered we would be living in a great world a great place. If only...

But so..? life goes on through this small little obstacles this small little problems.. somehow everything has to go on. Its your decision whether you want it to be good or you wnat to live in sadness right?

Guys, if your feeling this way please get out of it suck it up and go on with life. Time doesn't wait.Things DO get better over time. Time will tell. If Those people matter they will care somehow. if they don't just let them go. 

At the moment just find something to change in you to make you a better person. IF you hav e big problems means you have a big future. (: - bishop dale bronner

Work towards your dreams do what you like don't waste time pondering on yur sadness and missing the good things in your life there's much more to life (: 

stay tune! (:

HELLOO! yay holidays are starting soon ! results were okay i guess (: Hope i don't rot during the holidays so nervous for next thursday! ): gonna know our streaming classes. Anddd gonna miss 2 faith sigh ): time flies eveything is over before we even know it ): Hope next year would be a good one though (: And yup its building fund season so excited to give to God !! woohoo till the next post :))

Hey hey so yup hi! so many things happening lately havent bogged for so long ): been kinda busy ): so had my math common test and i failed ); science common test today quite screwed must really work hard esp for math and science! super important ! ((; anyways really thankful for my cg people and also some of my schoolmates ! been so encouraging towards me.

Really must have faith and applying sermons that pastor teach into my life. I believe all things will work out for good to those that love God (: Yes yes must have a positive mindset (: PDS competition very soon! Anyways till the next post (;

It's just..life

Thursday already (; the week's coming to an end. This week.. was not easy either :X started the 20 hr rule  have yet to complete 12 hrs ): sighh cca taking up lots of time ): mm..so..got scolded by Ms Low yesterday for talking in class. She was super angry with me and sent me out of class.. I mean talking isn't such a huge offence isn't it.. I apologized and explained that many other classmates were talking too but she said i was talking back to her and i was hopeless and beyond control...She even talked about why did the school even accept me back in. Even if she wanted to scold she didn't have to say all that. Then like yeah talked to Brian Ho about it. then i cried in class so embarrasing and paiseh but nvm ;x I wish she wasn't so bias..Going to prove to her wrong at the end of the year. Nevermind since it's already over :/ not the first time she scolded me anyway ):

I feel helpless somehow, even teachers like Ms Low don't like me . there must be a reason why she hates me and why all this are happening. I'm scared to attend her science lesson. And what more she's my form teacher. I guess nobody knows how i feel except for God.. Super busy nowadays finally found some time to blog about my feelings.Hope everything goes well from now on..

PDS training is increasing too. Gonna spend more saturdays training which means less time for church. I hope i know how to manage my time properly and use it wisely . Hope i don't backslide, must begin to trust God more and pray more. 

Hmm.. and geog common test got A1 so yupyup.. Maybe i should also talk less in class.. Thats all (:

Haven't blog for about a week. Wanted to, but super busy this few days.:X so....finished followup lesson 5 and 6 (: haha yayay (: Can't wait for the next one (: This whole week..so many things happened.. both good and bad i guess (: I think i should learn to handle things better and not just doing nothing about it. :( Mom was angry with me yesterday.. But really, i didn't do anything wrong and she just scolded me harshly.. I guess she's in a bad mood. or maybe i shouldn't talk back oh sigh i just wish there's peace ..): Hope everything will get better.. I think my grandma's not that well now. I just have this uncertain feeling that something isn't right... Scared..really...what am i supposed to do now. Gonna pray very hard and seek God.

At the same time, realised that exams are not very far away and haven't been concentrating much in lessons feel super guilty. oh sighh.. weekends pass so quickly. This week is academic excellence. Really gonna listen closely to the sermon and i want to fulfill the 20 hours before i go to church every week. I don't know if it's gonna be possible. But with God all things are right? (: GOGOGO Bianca (; Till the next post (:

The ups and downs (:

Today was pretty awesome bbq with zone mates haha had a good time laughing with eugene .desheng,kenneth and thura woohoo((: Think we were super noisy :X Already 12am now oh sigh have cip tmmr morning and need to waje at 6.30 ):

Yay it's saturday tmmr ((: so there's church ((; ahahaha. I think i should try to get over the incident soon.. Really don't know if im prepared or not. Have to have the right mindset to think ): feel scared at the same time. God you are my strength ((: Hopefully everything will turn out well (: Thank you Lord.

A new school week begins, today was quite relaxing Thank God. . However I really don't know how to control my feelings about some things. Been bearing for so long, sometimes i feel like just flaring up but the thing is there's always the consequences after doing anything and i wouldn't want to do anything wrong and not pleasing. Cuz the bible says do unto others what you want them to do unto you. i know we should all do that but sometimes it's really hard really.. I feel that nobody understands what position i am in now. If you were in my shoes you will know.

I put on that smile and treat that everything is finee but deep down i know it's not.. How much longer can i hold it? i'm just afraid one day i can't stand it anymore.. I made a wrong decision last week and i regret. I just pray that it won't happen again . I need to understand how i should look at things and really relating back to the sermons on saturday i think i have yet to relate out on how to guard my feelings and heart. Been gettting wrong thoughts lately. Not only happening outside but even when i'm home sometimes i feel that my parents dont understand what position i am in or probably im not opening up enough for them to care about me.

It would do me a huge favour if she doesn't come back. I don't want further arguments and disagreements somehow it's just good to stay away for awhile and shall get my thoughts sort out. So many thoughts come rushing through my head like there's really no end but all i need is some quiet time now. I want everyone to be happy but not everything i do can make everyone pleased. Sometimes i wonder if i'm foolished to keep on holding on maybe it's just time to let go.? ): Oh well so much so much to think about. God please give me the right mind and teach me how i can guard my feelings and heart.

The good things is even through the hardest times God will always be there and his love never fails . The worst will not be the end. The end will always be good Lord lead me give me dreams and visions and guide me wherever i go. God you are amazing (:

Today hanged out with Sherlynn , esther. eliz and jaz at my house and we made tang yuan!! (; Had an awesome time with them. Esther played the guitar, haha she's so good at it . Really admire Esther.. She can make time for us even though she's super busy. Love her (: (: Love my cg too !

3 days in a row spend with awesome church people ((: Really feel blessed for having them in my life. I still remember 2 months ago i was the super quiet girl in the cg and now i think i'm more talkative hahaha ((:  Esther texted me last night (: So encouraging ((: After all this relaxing days i think it's time to work hard again for the week (: MUST MUST MUST !! (: Can't say im looking forward to school this week (; But still have to make it good. Must trust the Lord and have more Faith ((:

When school starts again tomorrow i know that it's not gonna be easy. So thankful to have Andrea , Hatmah and Ariel in my life (: Wonder what i will do without them <3 Love them loads loads. I will remember what Lynette preached in service 1 this week and use it in my school (: Shall not be jealous and really deal with my feelings (: I believe this week would be fine with God.

Haven't stated studying properly. Still don't really understand the topic on sets for maths and there's still science etc etc.. God I trust in you for giving me the wisdom.. ((:

oh hi. Well thought of so many things today. Its the end of the first week of school another 14 weeks till EOY. ): So many things i feel like talking about but i think i will keep this post short. (: Have to revise on sets this weekend :/ cuz its quite confusing ):

And Kim's going to aussy end of this year. Time passes really quickly wish her all the best :D gonna miss her also :) Anywayy, shall just plan my time properly ,study cca and church. i think i shouldn't give up any of them for another . Although this week quite a number of unhappy things happened , it's already over. i hope next week will be better. Really need to spend more time to talk to God this week really busy :X

Haven't have time for follow up too :( sigh. I want to improve in studies , cca drills, tchoukball and also grow closer to GoD. I BELIEVE with God all things are possible and there's nothing as i give up. Really, it's the attitude towards what i do. I know i can do it. Gonna give my best and live my best life.

Today cca was quite fun especially dinner ! took polaroid with siti and evelyn (: haha ! sadly vanessa didnt come ): ): Just to end off this post.....




Even when you are feeling at the lowest point in your life, remember never give up. The worst is not the last (:


bye guys (;

Hi there again (: already 3 days since sch started and i already feel kind of worn out ); Oh Bianca whyy ): so dissapointed )): so busy this few days too really need more time management too ): Really need to be more discipline. So many thing happen throughout this week ); sometime i feel like breaking down and just cry myself to sleep but there's no point really . Need to put my faith and trust in God i really need more of that.I also think that i should change my attitude on how i look at things. sometimes i think im really very pessimistic about many things i want to change that :/ But however with God's guidance it will be possible ): This few weeks have not been feeling very happy i guess. Sometimes i try my best to act happy and all but deep down do i really feel joy in my heart? ): i guess not.I guess i lack time with God i lack understanding i really really lack the word of God.

Anyways i had my math common test today and i kinda flunk some of it ): Dk what i was thinking seriously need to pull up my socks. Kept talking in lessons too . ): On the bright side i got 3rd place for mastermind competition so yay (: and there's tchoukball training tmmrr (; haha !(:

guess that's all for today. God i really want to draw closer to you.

Bye for now.

Gonna be a short post today. Well term 3 have started and there's maths common test tomorrow :/ i hope i will be able to pass really God please be my guide i really feel guilty fr not studying hard during the june holidays and slacking so much ): ): didn't really study much today too oh mann ):

Besides school work cant wait for jayesslee this weekend (: can spend time with church people again and also cant wait to finish follow up (: hahaha (: Okay thats all for today (:

Its already almost the end of the 3rd week of june holidays ): Have been so busy lately ): i dont even think i have time for my family now.. ): Had cca training this afternoon..super tiring i felt like fainting ): ughh whyy Bianca whyy ): sighh really dissapointed in myself :/ i can't stand having sch starting soon ): 1 month of holidays feels too short.. I wish someone was here to comfort me now and really have a heart to heart talk to me..someone which i could share all my feelings too (: HAHAHA i think God is the most suitable ! xD

Anyways, almost finishing with the lava project filming so excited to see the video !!! (: there will surely be so any unglam photos ): HAHA nevermindd xD I look forward for an exciting year ahead this year ! hope everything will turn out well (: and will definitely miss 2 faith ); sighh esp my besties ): TT So much have happened this year really tired out hopefully by the end of this june holidays i will be recharged for the new battle ahead of me! God will be there with me (: (: Let's run this race well Bianca ! you can do it ! (hahaha self motivation)

Shall talk about the previous follow up session and my feelings about it here (: So last lesson was lesson 3 as mentioned in my prevoius post (: it was about relationship with god and people. about how to balance off both of it.So esther said that we come to church not only to worship God but also having a relationship with people.or vice versa (: I think its really important to have both of it equally i mean it will be unbalanced if we dont have either one of it isn't it? Talking about relationship with people around me in church i think for this while i have really not been so sociable like others in church. Shall do something about it (: (: yay ! (: and relationship with God is of course important (: Shall have more quiet time with him and read the bible more often yay (: (:

Oh well this post is really weird talking about so many diff tthings in one post (: haha (: shall update soon (: byebye (:


HAVE FAITH PEOPLEEE (:

Helloo peeps (:

Omgosh 1/2 a  year since i last posted. Just decided to update my blog todaay.
So many things happened this year.. idk how to start ): Anyways.. school have been  quite fun (: CCA is okay i guess.. I think last year i was too enthu somehow :p heheh :3 camp this saturday arghh so tiring ): So many homework assigments not completed. Hopefully the outing this thursdays with the nuts would be fun.That's all for now (:

Bye guys (: